crescendo-y music

the sun is out this morning. today has the beginnings of a wonderful day written all over it. i had breakfast/brunch with christina, my most favorite 23 year old med student :) again, i can never say enough about the wonderfulness of catching up with old friends. it was also wonderful to be back in wallingford. julia's never changes (that's a good thing) and seeing my old neighborhood really brings back lots of good memories. the playground, the "bottle washer" slides, stone way, all of it [jeep turns 90 today!!!]. i'm in a really reflective state of mind right now, and still trying to be present. interesting and a tiny bit contradictory. last night (well i guess all of yesterday) i got into a really lowly mood. seeing christina was a lot like being with j in chicago - a reminder of potential and all things positive (cautious optimism always??). i bet my sister doesn't even know she has such an influence on me. anywho, last night after i came home from the allegro i started making dinner and lost interest. i went to scarecrow and spent about two hours looking at videos, before finally settling on three really really random films. i watched two last night (i haven't stayed up that late since finals, and i probably shouldn't do it hehe) one of them was "me, you, and everyone we know" and the other was a finnish film that i don't know the title of. both of them dealt with characters searching for their place in society, love, etc. both of them were emotional, though for sort of different reasons.the first flim really struck the loneliness chord. anyway, christina laughed a bit at my choices - they only perpetuated my bad mood. until this morning anyway, for some reason i woke up this morning so happy. i don't understand my brain, i don't understand how my perception of situations change overnight, but i'm happy and optimistic, and the sun is out!

today holds the prospect of walking to REI, walking around greenlake, reading some more of one of my all-time favorite books (trying to finish it before i go back!) overthinking seattle with crescendo-y italian opera. there are no easy answers but the sun really makes things seem clearer!