life the universe, and noonie

oh gah. what a title, eh? anwyho. a lot to talk about. so here goes. it's 12:31 on january 28th. pretty awesome in that 1231 is a pretty sweet sequence of numbers. i like random things like that... and the fact that humans are coelomates...and groundworms aren't. right right that needs an explanation. i've been pretty happy recently, but there is a lot to write about. a lot to think about. just digesting it all... yesterday (as in half an hour ago) was awesome. i had ornithology with nat at 10 am. AMAZING. if i hadn't had an epiphany about how i should go about being an environmental lawyer, i may still be tossing and turning at night pondering how to get a phd in ornithology. i love birds. more than i love lamp, hehe. that says a lot. today i sat between mike and mike - two of the sweetest guys in class, and two of the most wonderful people i've met at bowdoin. not bad for a class that i'm auditing, eh? i just need to buy my book soon...eek. anywho. we talked about vomiting procellariformes...true dat, man. :) they smell funky too! in the afternoon dan and i went crazy shopping for dinner. cooking was AMAZING. i wish i could do it more often. about a dozen of my most beloved friends at bowdoin - in one room. eating greek food :) (opa!) drinking wine, listening to hungarian opera (haha and anything from clap your hands to shakira!) it was possibly the most wonderful dinner i've had at bowdoin yet. if i hadn't been nearly tickled to death, i may have gotten up the nerve to tell each of my friends how much i love them - and how happy it made me that they could be there! but i suppose being tickled wasn't half bad. being tied up in my wonderful fleece blanket sort of sucked though :) ... a bit claustrophobic, i must say.
before i go to bed (which i thought i'd be doing about 2 hours ago) i have to say that although i don't quite understand why i love people as much as i do, i can't help it. i wish i could develop a tiny shell to protect me from the sucky times in which you get hurt by loving people, it just never seems to happen. i'm so happy. i want to trust everyone and all their motives. i don't want to imagine next semester/year - i love my friends, both old (read: senior) and young. i don't want to lose a single one. oy vey.
let me end this latish post by saying something entirely vague and something not so vague... VAGUE: one of my most beloved "older" friends reminded me today that life does not revolve around a single person. true. my life revolves around all my friends, all my acquaintances, and around the fact that everyone deserves your love until they show otherwise. i just want to acknowledge their insight - i realize this. it is interesting though (really now) trying to come to terms with one's internal feelings toward individuals. i'm reading a book right now about various things (hehe, ultimate vagueness!) and i've come to question exactly WHY i love people/places/things/etc etc. the fact remains however, that i do. why is an important question, though i hope i can find a painless answer!
life is fragile. i'm finding that love, honesty, generosity, and sleep are the most wonderful and fulfilling (if a bit stressful, nervewracking) bits in it all.
can i just make a tshirt???? "don't mess with me... i love you!" anyway, something like that. i miss julianna. i keep calling, bu apparently she's always with the magnificent ivan :) (i or j- if you read this... it'd be awesome if i could call and have you be home!!!) hehe. 1am on sunday. i'm thinking of calling nagymama at 10...which makes me think of grandma...and a certain kid who i know a lot and surprisingly little about. oy vey. just think of levin... it's all about happiness, in the end...

jo eszakat all - i love you more than i'll ever have the guts to tell you to your face. once i figure out the secret behind apple tarts, i'll express my love in the form of little tarts...

and ps. i love (and miss) most thoroughly, noonie.